Wednesday, May 28, 2014

I Saw Jesus Today


Today I saw Jesus. He looked nothing like the white, Anglo-Saxon portraits of Jesus I see hanging in our church building.  In fact, a few times he did not even look like a he…I know it sounds crazy but I tell you he had the face of a she.  A few times today he looked older than I thought he would and then another time or two he looked much younger than I expected.  To tell the truth, every time I turned around his face looked different than what I saw a few minutes earlier.  But as different as he looked every time I looked, I was surprised at how sure I was that it was, without a doubt, Jesus. 

O, and get this…this will make you smile…today I saw Jesus where people say Jesus is no longer allowed to be…Yes, today I saw Jesus in a public school. 

I saw Jesus looking through the eyes of Barry and Janice Gowen.  Barry, shared the first and last names of some of the children he connected most with as he served at the Field Day we sponsored for a local public school.  I wondered for how many of those children it was the first time to have a positive Grandfather figure playing with, joking with and encouraging them.  I know it was special for them because kids flocked to Barry’s game table. And then there was his wife, Janice.  Janice did not give handshakes, she gave out hugs.  I never thought Jesus looked like a woman, but as she gushed over children today, I clearly saw Jesus in her smile.  The kids must have, too, because they certainly warmed up to her fast.

I watched Jesus’ hands at work through Heather Morris.  Heather, got down on her knees and helped a boy with physical disabilities put on his leg braces and shoes.  She patiently worked with him for a good ten minutes and the whole time she was speaking words of life and blessing over this little guy who was easily left in the dust of his classmates.  It was as if I was watching Jesus wash his disciple’s feet. 

I knew Jesus could do miracles, but I did not know Jesus did nails and tattoos.  Did you know that?  It’s true!  I saw him doing the nails of hundreds of dirty hand little girls and putting stick on tattoos on hundreds of boys through the work of Angela Estes, Mary Peterson, Andee Hanson and Victoria Pavlantos.  Sometimes it is surprising what Jesus will do to make a child feel special.

I watched Jesus give high fives and clap for kids as Jordan Kramer, Kelly Barr and Cynthia Ringer played bean bag toss and tin can knocked down with boys and girls.  Each time they made sure each child felt like a winner.  Now, I know that was Jesus because he died so we could win. 

If it takes 10 positive words to overcome one negative, then Cathy Hall, set many children free today.  I had no idea that Jesus had the voice of a woman, but each time I heard Cathy speak life over those children and I saw them eat it up like they had been starving for such nourishment, I knew that she was letting Jesus use her voice box. 

I watched Jesus feed the multitudes today as Claudia Rocus, Amanda Quinn, Kimberly Current and Cynthia McClellan filled around 300 bags with fresh popcorn.  It was hot and sticky and messy, but they did this mundane task as unto the Lord.  Jesus must like popcorn because in them I saw him taking on the role of a servant. 

Yes, servant…that is just the right word.  Jesus said he did not come to be served, but to serve.  No wonder when I looked into the eyes of Adam Nichols, Bob Vaughn, Jodie and Robert Orihel as they were helping with tear down or set up I thought I saw Jesus wearing four different faces.

I saw Jesus today and I can’t quite get over it.  I type these words fighting back tears and having a heart that is warmed.  I have a sense of reverence.  I am tempted to take off my shoes.  It’s humbles and enlivens all at once.  It’s something I want to talk about, but it is hard to put into words.  But I guess that is what it is like to be in the presence of Jesus.  Yes, today I saw Jesus and he looked nothing like I expected but exactly like the Bible says he does. 

Thank you to everyone who let Jesus be seen through your loving actions in preparation for and during our Field Day at Belle Stone Elementary!

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Don't Forget to Remember


Today I started reading a book to help me in my studies for a sermon series in August.  I’ll be honest, I rarely read the “Acknowledgements.”  But for some reason, this time, I did and I am so glad.  The name leaped off the page at me, “Jeffery Wittung…at Baker Academic.”  You see, I may not be that smart, but I had at least one friend (no offense to any of my other friends) who had a brilliant mind and his name was Jeff Wittung.  I say “had” because Jeff died from injuries sustained in a car accident in 2010.  All it took was seeing his name on that book page to have my mind opened to remember. 

I first met Jeff at Mount Vernon Nazarene University.  We were both religion majors so we knew of each other, but it was not until our senior year that we really began to connect.  I remember on our graduation day we made plans for him to drive from his home in Van Wert to mine in Miamisburg so we could take a road trip to visit Nazarene Theological Seminary.  Needless to say, we got to know each other very well, very fast in that long, boring ride across the heart of America.  Before we left Kansas City, we put down a deposit on an apartment at Knob Hill and registered for classes at NTS in the fall.  For the next three years we shared that apartment and became good friends.  We graduated and I had the honor of being the best man in Jeff and Marne’s wedding. 

Of course, time rolls on and lives get busy, but Jeff and I would occasionally connect and pick up right where we left off.  Jeff was a loyal friend who possessed and called forth a depth in a relationship that few other friendships seem to have the courage to allow let alone invite.

And then, like it was some horrible nightmare I could not awaken from, I learned that Jeff was in critical condition.  I talked with his wife, videotaped the sermon for Sunday and made it to the hospital just hours before he passed from this life to the next. 

All of that and more comes flooding back just from seeing a few words on a page.  Sometimes it is good to , isn’t it?  I have so many memories of Jeff that are so good; times of laughing, praying, talking and just hanging out together.  It is good to remember the good.  But it is also sometimes painful to remember, isn’t it?  Seeing Jeff lying in the hospital, with his wife crying and the pictures that his little girls had colored to decorate his room still breaks my heart.  Nevertheless, I am convinced that remembering, even when it is painful, is healthy.  Because just because we have trained ourselves to forget something does not mean we are any freer from the pain of it. 

This weekend we celebrate a holiday that is all about remembering.  I remember when my Grandpa and Grandma would spend the weekend driving around South West Ohio placing flowers on graves.  At each stop, they would remember…they would remember the person, the good and the painful.  I wonder how many people of my generation truly appreciate “Memorial Day?”  I wonder for how many of us it is merely a day off work and cook-out on the deck…nothing wrong with a day off and having a meal with friends and family, but I can’t help but wonder what happens when a generation forgets to remember. It just seems it is difficult to know who you are if you do not remember who and how you got to be who you are.  It just seems it is difficult to truly move forward, or at least to go anyplace worth going to, if you have not taken the time to learn or heal from your past. 

Whether all that is true or not for life, we do know it to be true for our relationship with God as individuals and as a church family.  The Hebraic concept of faith was not peering blindly into the future and expecting God to suddenly show up.  No, the Hebraic concept of faith was to walk into the future backwards.  With each step backwards into the future one would remember the faithfulness of God in the past and therefore have real hope in knowing that if God came through back then, he could surely come through again. 

The Psalmist writes, “I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago” (Psalm 77:11).  The context of that Psalm is one of lament and complaint.  The Psalmist begins by crying out for help and asking how long God will forget them.  However, then he remembers.  He remembers the deeds of the Lord in the past and by the end of the Psalm his remembrance has brought forth real hope and faith for his uncertain present and future.  Because he remembers who God was, he can believe who God is.

So, this Memorial Day weekend, I pray that we will have the courage to and will make the time to simply, but profoundly remember.  Who knows how the Father might use what he causes you to remember to unlock your future!    

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Just Wait Till the Honeymoon is Over


It is funny how not so encouraging people can be when a couple gets married.  I have officiated at enough weddings to hear all of the “jokes” multiple times…”You still have time to run,”  “This is your last night of freedom,”  “There are no keys for the old ball and chain,” and I can remember people saying to me, “It’s all great now, but just wait till the honeymoon is over.” 

I guess in some ways they were right.  The honeymoon was great because it was not based in reality.  It was a vacation. How can the routine and mundane of daily life compete with fantasy?  That’s not even playing fair.  So, they were right in that the fantasy does end with the honeymoon.

Those who said, “Just wait till the honeymoon is over,” were also right in the sense that learning to live in the same house with someone was a whole lot different than dating and being engaged.  Kimberly and I both brought our own strengths, weaknesses, and baggage from the past, expectations for the future and families of origin’s influence into our new marriage.  And so yes, it was true that when the fantasy of the honeymoon ended we had to stare reality in the face.  I guess some would look at that as a bad thing. 

However, if the honeymoon fantasy would have never ended we would have never ventured into the depths of true love that continues to grow in our relationship going on 13 years later. I have discovered what unconditional love means as Kimberly loves me not for who she wishes I would be but for who I am.  I hope Kimberly has received the same from me.  Each issue, stressor or problem we have had to navigate, be its source internal or external, has not hurt, but helped our relationship to become more authentic and healthy.  I enjoyed our honeymoon, but frankly, I am glad it could not last forever because I did not marry Kimberly to share in a fantasy with her but to walk with her through the day by day reality called life.  It is when the honeymoon was over that the best days of our relationship began and out of which have continued to grow.

So, here we are CFNAZ family.  We said our “I do’s” on November 10, 2013.  We began our honeymoon in January.  It was a beautiful time for which I will always look back with gratefulness and warm memories.  The way you all went out of your way to welcome us and help us transition was beyond words.  Moreover, your openness and responsiveness to the Sprit was made visible through the fruit of the following: 27 commitments to Christ since January, over $77,000 pledged to Faith Promise Plus, the marble vote at the annual meeting in which you gave us permission to let go of other ministries so we can put the best of our time, energy and resources into corporate worship, connection groups, community outreach and Sunday School, 165 of you signed up to serve on the C.O.O.L. project, you have allowed us to revise an old model in a new way for reaching the next generation by calling a part-time youth Pastor (plus part-time discipleship pastor) to lead us in a discipleship model that equips parents and multiple adult mentors to change the statistic that says 59% of kids raised in the church will leave their faith when they graduate from high school, the move of classes to make our building safe and secure for children, God turning your donated items into a huge open door to a local public school, 675 on Easter and that is not even naming everything!  Praise God and thank you!  What a great honeymoon period it has been!

And now it has been long enough that I think we can say, “The honeymoon is over.”  So, is that a good thing or bad thing in your mind?  I can’t answer for you, but for me it is a good thing. 

Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed and valued the honeymoon period as much as anyone.  However, it is not in the honeymoon that the real work, depth and authenticity of a marriage is developed.  By this time in our “marriage” as Pastor and Church Family may be you feel like Kimberly must have after our honeymoon.  You feel like you have smelled my morning breath and seen what is left of my hair a mess.  Let’s just say it’s not a pretty picture! :-) And now, like in any marriage, we all must reach a point where we decide if we are glad the honeymoon is over.

Just so you know, “I’m glad the honeymoon is over.”  I believe that is not only good for me and you but for the Kingdom of God.  Because God did not bring us together as Pastor and Church family to live in a fantasy world, but to send us as a light into the reality of a world that is dark. Here is what I dream for the reality of our “marriage”: I don’t want everybody to feel like they leave every sermon I preach happy and full, but I pray, you and I both will leave still hungry so we will feed on God’s Word all week long and that you and I will regularly leave offended by the radical expectation of self-denial Jesus claims he has a right to ask of us.  I dream for us to fully explore and embrace whatever God leads us to in the Refocus process. I don’t want us to just smile and play nice in front of each other, but to make room for a loving honesty that makes Jesus proud as we follow him through the steps he gives us in Matthew 18.  I want us to grow so strong in the Lord together that the armies of hell in Canton, Ohio and beyond will grow increasingly terrified of our very presence. I want us to challenge each other to quit asking what do we want, need and prefer and to boldly ask what God wants and what do lost people need to see Jesus. I want us to dare to see each other as we truly are—the pretty and the ugly—and to love each other all the more. 

So, yes, in my assessment the honeymoon is over.  And as far as I am concerned that is best thing that could have ever happened because the best things of God are not based in fantasy, but reality.  What do you think?

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Grandpa Taught Me the Most by Never Teaching Me


Everything I ever learned about gardening I learned from my Grandpa Current and he never taught me a thing. 

When I was a young boy, I loved to spend time with Grandpa in his garden.  And by garden I do not mean a small patch of dug up sod in his small back yard.  No, my grandpa’s garden was so big, he rented land from a nearby neighbor who had enough land to have a whole farm. 

I would watch Grandpa put on his work shoes and I knew that if I did not want Mom or Grandma pitching a fit then I had better put on my play shoes.  Then I would follow Grandpa to the shed where he would begin to pull out the tools for the day.  I especially loved it when he would pull out his red, gas powered tiller. 

Next, I learned how to prepare the soil for the garden.  He would take the gas powered tiller, give me a shovel and to work we’d go.  I would watch that hard, soil turn soft, like sand and when he hit a rock, he would call my name and I knew just what to do; no rocks allowed in Grandpa’s garden.  Then we’d hop in his old Chevy and make our way to the local nursery, which had huge vats of every kind of seed a young boy could imagine.  I remember asking, “Grandpa, how do you know which corn or green bean seeds to pick when there are so many?”  He would reach in the vat, pull out some seeds, place them in my hand and explain his choice. 

Then it was back to the garden for planting.  He would make the rows because he liked them straight and I tended to make them crooked, which to be honest bothered not just him but me (I’ve always liked my “sock drawers” organized you see J).  As he would make the rows, he would give me the seeds.  He never said much.  He just sewed some seeds in one row and then would say, “Do you see how I did that?”  “Yep,” I’d say.  Then he’d say, “Now you do it to the rest of these rows just like I showed you.”  And then I would do what he did.

I loved planting, but not nearly as much as I loved to watch the plants grow.  Grandpa would say, “Chad, the plants are com’n up,” and I would beg my parents to let me go to Grandpa’s.  Then I would learn how to care for the plants.  I would watch Grandpa fertilize them, water them, weed them, keep the soil tilled and I would do everything I saw him do.  In fact, I learned the difference between corn sprouts and weeds by digging up a whole row of corn before Grandpa, put his hand on my shoulder, smiled and said, “Chad, do you see what you are digging up? That’s is baby corn.  Now, you see this over here that looks like baby corn, but has this difference?  Those are weeds.  Now, go dig up the weeds and leave my corn alone.”  I never dug up baby corn again because he taught me by letting me have permission to mess up. 

And finally the day would come, when Grandma would call and say, “If you come help Grandpa bring in the harvest, I will make you all some green beans, potatoes and ham, ensalata and some fresh bread.”  I did not have to beg my parents to make the drive for that.  As Grandpa began to harvest the crops, I learned which were ready and which needed a little more time.  And he and I would both talk about how Grandma would take these things we had grown and turn them into something mouthwatering. 

Well, the years passed.  Grandpa grew old and his mind faded into the darkness of Alzheimer’s.  He could not care for the big garden we use to have, so I dug up a small patch of sod in his small back yard.  Grandma smiled and said, “O, it’s going to be so good to have some fresh vegetables.”  I did everything I saw Grandpa do all those years ago.  Most days Grandpa just sat and watched, but every once in a while he would walk to the edge of the dirt and I would hand him a shovel or some seeds and he would watch me and then he would do what I did.  Of course, now I used the red, gas powered tiller because he could not recall how and his body was too weak. 

This morning as the rain was watering the land, it made me think about all those days with my Grandpa in his garden. I would not trade them for all the money in the world.  But today, as I was thinking about it, I realized that Grandpa taught me all I knew about gardening, without ever teaching me a thing. 

You see, Grandpa was not an educated man—he was very intelligent, but not educated.  He barely made it through an eighth grade education.  For him sitting at a desk listening to a lecture was not how he learned and so it was not how he taught.  Some would look at his “teaching style” and say, “Your Grandpa did not teach you a thing.”  And I would get a little defensive, stand up straight and say, “I suggest you keep those comments to yourself because that man taught me more without saying a word about gardening and lot of other things, than all my years of school combined. He may not have sat me down at a desk and given me a lecture, but he did what is much harder and takes much more time and patience. He let a little boy walk in his footsteps.  No doubt he could have gotten things done a lot faster if I was not in the way digging up rows of corn, but for him that was what learning was about.  Learning was not about hearing about something, but about doing something.  For Grandpa, the best way to learn something was to watch some else do it, then try it yourself and if you failed it was all the better because some of the best learning comes from first failing.

My Grandpa’s family came to the US from Ireland, but it would seem he must have had a good bit of Jewish thinking about him.  I say that because the Hebraic understanding of teaching the Torah was much like how my Grandpa taught me to garden.  The lessons of faith, the Jewish people thought, were not best learned in a classroom, but around the table at breakfast, in the fields, at the workbench, in the market place and around the fire as the sun was going to sleep (See Deuteronomy 6).  Of course, we see this most clearly through Jesus.  Each time Jesus invited someone to be his student, he did not say, “Come, listen to me teach, memorize everything I say and then pass a test.”  No, he said, “Come, follow me.”  Think about the messed, up motley crew of disciples to which he gave the invitation, “Come, and follow me.”  They did not have their theology worked out or doctrine defined or ethics examined.  They could not have written a philosophy of ministry or a mission statement.  The best they could do was “leave everything and follow him.”  And that they did.  And with that registration fee paid, Jesus showed them how to walk with the Father in everyday life.  He showed them how to eat with sinners, how to rebuke the religious, how to have peace in a storm, how to feed the hungry, how to touch the leper, how to love an adulteress rather than stone her, how to teach in a way that let people see God where they were and not just in the temple, how to pray, fast, heal, believe and even how to die.   Jesus did all of that by showing them and letting them try it.  He even gave them permission to fail so they could learn the better way.  Remember the time the disciples could not cast out an evil spirit?  Jesus let them try and fail so they would come to him and ask why they failed.  He then showed them that some spiritual battles require more than prayer, they require fasting and with that Jesus cast it out and then next time they could do it.

Why do I share all of this?  Well, because I heard that some folks among us have a legitimate concern.  They fear that the new Sunday School model for children does not have enough sit down and instruction time.  They fear that the children will not learn the Scripture if they are not sitting and hearing someone teach it.  Certainly there is a place for such a “Greek” influenced form of instruction. I sat through seven years of it to try to be as best prepared as I could to answer God’s call to serve.  However, even my best professors knew that if my book learning was not matched with practical experience it would all be for not.  So, I encourage those of you with concerns to take another look at the life and teachings of Jesus.  I believe he will assure you and me both that while there is a time to sit and listen as he encouraged Mary to do at his feet, more often, Jesus taught by doing, walking, showing and living.  He was so confident that this methodology would capture the hearts and minds of his 12 that after his resurrection he said now you go into all the world teaching them everything I have taught you and baptizing them in my name. He put the future of the Church in their hands.  They knew so little after only three years and yet in everything Jesus showed them he taught them more with saying barely a word than all the great teachers in all the centuries combined.  He taught them to change the world by living their faith out in a world that was desperate to see Gods light. 

So, CFNAZ, will you help me make room for both types of discipleship at CFNAZ, not only for the children, but for the teens and adults.  We have the “Greek” style down well and it has a well-deserved and needed place, but will you also allow us to equally emphasize Jesus’ most used style of teaching—the “Come Follow Me” model?  If we can marry that with the excellent classroom teaching we have here, then certainly we certainly, for his glory, we could become a force to be reckoned with for good for the next generation, our community and even for our world!